Another time I heard two girls talking bad about me when I was right there. I was sitting in front of them and they said “who?” And they went silent. You might say I’m overreacting but they were describing me and I could see from the corner of my eye them pointing. It hurt so bad but what can I do.
I’m really quiet and barley talk and I am overly nice but not really anymore. Maybe they see me as a “easy” person? Idk. I’ve never gotten into drama or fights so I feel it’s my awkwardness. I’m not really good at interacting with people even though I’ve been around them my whole life. I really just want to graduate soon.
Literally, most of the girls in my grade are toxic. They give me weird look and most of the time when I say something they side eye me. I mean there the ones including me in your conversation. Their like to me “omg (my name) don’t you think so and so is silly” I smiled and said “haha maybe” and the girl gives me a dirty look…I thought it was a joke and said it in a jokingly manner nothing about the situation was mean or something.
One time, two of my own friends laughed at me, ignored me and embarrassed me after I tried talking to them. It wasn’t the funny laugh it was the mean laugh 😆 we have all gone school and I want to know what about me makes people react like this? I think a lot and I’ve never hurt anyone. I barley even talk…I’m that quiet, shy, awkward, sometimes a push over ( I say no a lot though nowadays yayy)does not find you amusing or funny classmate. There jokes aren’t funny anyways…like who are they to be treating me so badly… an example: I got called dumb for trying to open the door. 1. I didn’t know it was locked. 2. I just came so piss off. Looking back I’m actually a bit annoyed at them but what can i do? I can write a whole book about the rude stuff they have said 😁 I do genuinely want to change but it is very hard.
Part of me wants to know this stuff because in two years I’m out of school and is going to get a job. Maybe ill take a job with little interactions. If there is any pls tell me thanks 🙂